Monday, 16 January 2017

Quick Fixes Don't Work

Waiting... isn't that one of life's hardest things.. the unknown.. Isn't everyone just looking for that quick fix? That magic pill that makes them loose weight. Their dream job. The perfect house. Everyone wants things instantly and for it to be perfect. But sometimes you have to put the effort in to reap the reward.

I'm speaking for myself as well. I get so caught up in "I want it now". I seem to forget that things can take time and work. Sure there are some things that are instant. But from what I've learned the best things are worth waiting for.

That can be with health, healing, loosing weight. What ever you're wanting to change.

I always tell Jon sometimes I can be extremely patient with things. But sometimes I hit that wall. You know the one I'm talking about. Where it feels like you can't see the end of the race and it feels like you have been running for decades. The prize is no longer in sight! Don't we all get impatient at one time or another? Sometimes I just want that ability to snap my fingers and fix it all.

End of January will be a turning point. But doesn't mean the last 2 years of dealing with all this goes away. The road to recovery and full closure from all this is still long and hard. So how do I keep my eyes on the finish line. When it feels like there is no finish line and this chapter in my life seems to never end? It can be extremely frustrating! I'm not going to lie. But sometimes the hardest things are worth fighting for!

As I look at a new year. It brings hope of a new beginning! New healing, new job (hopefully!!), new adventure! Who knows where we will be in 2017. But I pray pray pray. That it will be a lot better than 2015-2016. I understand everyone has their struggles. But I think I've had enough health scares to last me to say... my 80's? Yeah! Let's go with that. Lol

I guess just like everyone when a new year comes you look back at the year that passed and wonder what you can do differently. Let's hope it only gets better from here!

Waiting... what can we do instead of tying ourselves up in knots of worry and impatience? We can trust, pray and go on living.

Trust: God has your story all layed out. What ever struggle you're going through. There's a reason for it. He didn't make a mistake. So trust.

Pray: for His strength, His patience, His love. Without it the road is long, dark and lonely.

Live: even in the hard days where the end of your struggle is no where to be seen. Don't stop living your life. There are days I want to curl up and just throw my hands in the air and say this is as good as it gets. But I have to remind myself that every struggle, trial, loss and tribulation happened for a reason. I may not know the reason behind it. But God does. And isn't that all that matters? It's a hard thing to wrap my head around. Especially because I like being in control. But releasing my struggles to God and saying I can't do this alone. Helps ease that feeling of no end in sight.

Life can be hard at times. But life can be beautiful and full of joy as well. Throughout it all I just have to remember to focus on the good and let all the stress melt away. No use stressing over things that as out of my hands. Easier said than done! Believe me I know!

I hope and pray what we've struggle you maybe going through. What ever loss you maybe experiencing. You're not alone! What ever you need to change don't wait for tomorrow. Change it today!  Don't let worry take up your days. Take it one day at a time. You got this!! I know it.

May 2017 be full of love, hope, joy and adventure!

Dee Dee

Tuesday, 3 January 2017

New year.. new beginnings!

With every new year everyone has new year resolutions. I've never been one about following this tradition. Ive always believed if there is something you want to change or do you should just say or do it. Not wait for the new year. But at the same time to each there own. I just get concerned when people put themselves up for failure and get discouraged by their resolutions. 

Each year you never know what is in store for you. Each year has brought its own difficulties. We've have been lots of blessings for us. But a lot of struggles as well. Everyone has their own trials and difficulties. I've definitely learned to not judge anyone. You never know what someone might be going through. 

As I look at the new chapter, Im excited to see what new adventure is in store for Jon&I. I hope 2017 has a lot less loss... I don't think I can handle anymore loss. 

If you plan on making changes don't be hard on yourself. If you are making changes make them because you want to. Not because you feel pressure to do it for a "New Years resolution". 

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas 🎄 and a great new year! 


Friday, 23 December 2016

Celebrating Christ Birth

Christians worldwide celebrate Christmas as the day Christ was born

Churches display the nativity scene and do Christmas pageants. 

The word 'Christmas' itself is coined from the name Christ and mass which is the celebration of. Christmas has become in the world, in the sense that with Christmas trees, gift exchange and Santa gaining more attention than Christ. Some celebrate Christmas with all the focus on Christ while rejecting the things with zero reference to Christ. Others might celebrate Christmas exclusive of Christ. 

Christ is said to be the reason for the season. If Christ did not come to this world there would be no birth of Christ to celebrate, hence no Christmas.

We often stop at this to justify that Christmas is incomplete without Christ. For those who do not know Christ, Christmas doesn't have any meaning other than just a holiday. 

However, there's a purpose behind the birth of Christ which gives another meaning to Christmas.   "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." - John 3:16

Christmas is not just a birthday celebration. Christmas is more than the birth of Christ. Christmas is our creator's love for us. Christmas is the Son of God coming to earth to reconcile us to the Father.

Christmas is about a love so undeserving that even when we do not meet God's standard a bridge is formed made by Christ, so we can once again come before God with a clean slate.
The birth of Jesus is the ultimate demonstration of how great God's love is for mankind that the Son of God would come to earth as the Son of Man with the sole purpose of giving His life for us.
The celebration of Christmas is a celebration of God's intended love for us.
Christmas is about a love so undeserving that even when we do not meet God's standard of holiness, a bridge is formed by Christ, so we can once again come before God with a clean slate.
The birth of Jesus is the ultimate demonstration of how great God's love is for mankind that the Son of God would come to earth as the Son of Man with the sole purpose of giving His life for us.
The celebration of Christmas is a celebration of God's intended love for us.  

After all, Christmas isn't just about the day Christ was born it's about a lifetime of God's love for mankind. 


Merry Christmas and happy new year! Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend with family and friends. I'm praying 2017 has less lost for Jon and I...

DJ June 2003- July 2016
Odin November 2010- December 15, 2016

You both are near in our hearts as we go into a new year without you. Odin is much more recent and much more raw for us. My heart literally still aches for him. I haven't gone a day without breaking
 down in tears at the thought of him not being around. His food dish sitting empty makes me cry, taking a picture of Skylos without Odin, Skylos searching the house for him. All these are reminders he's gone and it kills me knowing I can't cuddle him one last time.

Odin and DJ were more than pets. They each signified a chapter in Jon and my relationship. They were family. A part of our family was lost this year. And I cling to the fact they are out of pain and it was their time. Doesn't make it easier. But it helps knowing jon and I did what was best for them. 

You are both gone but never forgotten. 


As a new year approaches you reflect back on the year that is passed. 2016 had its ups and downs. But I continue to thank God for every blessing and ask for His strength when times are tough. He has gotten us through worse years. I'm hoping 2017 will be filled with more laughter than tears, more joy than sorrow, more hope than fear and more love than hate. 


Friday, 25 November 2016

Matthew 5:43-45

We as a society feel like we have come so far, that we are open to others. Whether it's their belief, their race, the way they live their life. We feel that everyone has a right to freedom of speech. As long as what they say isn't hate.

But have we changed? or have people just been forced to conform to what the world believes is right? We believe we are a tolerant world. That we don't judge people. But don't we?

I was raised to stand up for what I believe. To defend what I believe. But in a gracious, kind and loving way. I don't believe I was created to judge, hate or discriminate against others. But does that mean I don't have a voice? Does that mean I can't disagree?

It's a fine line.. It's hard to find the balance between standing up for yourself, but not coming across as a judgemental person.

People that feel the only way to defend their believes by spreading judgement or hate. Is wrong! We are told to love our enemies..

"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy. I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you. That you may be children of your Father in heaven." 
- Matthew 5:43-45

So, how do we put that into action. It doesn't mean I can't stand up for what I believe. I've seen non-christians and christians defend their believes in a way that just spreads judgement and hate.

As a believer I know I chose a life of persecution. Following Jesus Christ isn't an easy road. But the finish line is what makes every hardship worthwhile. I've had to defend my faith to family and friends. I don't believe there is anything wrong with standing up for what you believe in. But society tells a different story. They believe that if you speak your mind about Jesus you are cramming your beliefs down someone's throats. They beleive speaking Jesus Christ, in schools, in the work place, is wrong. We have removed the bible, God and Jesus Christ from everything. We can't even say Merry Christmas without offending someone. We have to do merry Xmas or happy holidays.

We as Christians are told we're not open to others, we are judgmental, we should just keep our faith to ourselves. But at the same time non Christians and non believers can push their way of living down our throats and society has told us that is acceptable.

We live in a world that believes it has "come so far". When in fact we as a society have just found another place to put our hate, our judgment on and one of them is Christians.

If you as a Doctor, teacher feel certain laws that are passed or certain ways of teaching go against what you believe as a Christian. That doesn't matter. Because they have decided to separate Church and state. Parents aren't even allowed a say in what is being taught to their children.

It's a hard time in today's society to be a believer. We just have to continue sharing our story, fighting for what we believe in, fighting for what is right. God didn't put you on this earth to remain silent or to be made silent. He wants you to share of Gods love, of His grace. He wants you to stand firm in your beliefs. Stand up for Christ!

“We speak, not in the words which man’s wisdom teacheth, but which the Holy Ghost teacheth” 1 Corinthians 2:13

This has been heavy on my heart as recently I was offended by some comments on a post. The person who wrote the comments has a way of just making fun of Christians, posting hate, and twisting facts to justify the comments that were made. I had to set aside my anger for what was being said and just post what I beleive. I was tired of seeing post that were directed at Christians in a mean, hurtful and hateful way.

“A soft answer turneth away wrath; but grievous words stir up anger” Proverbs 15:1

As mentioned before I was raised to love and respect others.. no matter their race, religion or beliefs. Just because someone doesn't share the same beliefs as you does not mean you have to spread hate. You can defend what you beleive in but in a loving and meaningful way. You shouldnt have to spread hate to defend what you beleive in.

Well that's my two cents anyway. Remember no matter what we are called to love one another. Love one another as Christ loved us and gave His life for us. And don't be ashamed to speak about your faith.

For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ” Romans 1:16


Tuesday, 15 November 2016

Gain an hour.. lose an hour of daylight!

Every year we do it, yet every time we do it never ceases to amaze me, how that extra hour of sunlight makes all the difference. Even though it's beautiful out! Seriously like spring out there and it's already middle of November. At this rate we'll have enough wood for 3 winters. But back to losing that hour of sunlight. It really causes everyone to go into a depression. I don't think I'm the only one. Everyone I'm talking to tells me how they want to go tanning. Just to get some vitamin d. It's not bad if you have some afternoons off. But for people that work 8-5 etc you feel like you got to work in the dark and get home in the dark. It can be really depressing. 

What doesn't help is all this talk about the American election and Donald Trump becoming president. I haven't posted anything about the election yet. But it's been nonstop post about it. It can be overwhelming. Even more so than the thought of Trump being president. Time will tell to see how he is. Let's just pray he just runs his mouth and he doesn't plan going through with any of it. We will see. 

With all these things happening. It can really cause you to hit a wall. Well know you're not on your own. Here's a list I found...

  • Keep active. Research has shown that a daily one-hour walk in the middle of the day could be as helpful as light treatment for coping with the winter blues. 
    1. Get outside. 
    2. Keep warm. 
    3. Eat healthily. 
    4. See the light. 
    5. Take up a new hobby. 
    6. See your friends and family. 
    7. Talk it through.

    Hope it helps us all as we prepare ourselves for winter and fewer and fewer hours of daylight. The only thing I'd add is praying. God can shed light on the darkest of days. 


    Tuesday, 1 November 2016

    A new season.. A new beginning..

    As we enter a new season. I'm reminded that with each season brings change. Sometimes that change can be good. Sometimes that change can be hard. Life can throw you in directions you never imagined. Maybe you're starting a new adventure and that's scary, but exciting. Maybe you're waiting for something, and that's hard. Maybe you're looking for change. Maybe life is just in general hard right now. Well if I've learned anything.. it's this. Life can be hard and that's ok! It may seem like a easy thing to learn. But for me it wasn't. I got married at 20. You'd think I'd have my whole life ahead of me. And we did. But shortly into marriage I would go to a cottage and get a parasite and spend a long time in the hospital and recovery. I'd finally get back on my feet and start a new job at age 22 and again at age 25 I'd suffer a neck injury and be on the road to recovery again. Except this time it would be a year later.. almost 2 years and Im still dealing with it.

    It can be super frustrating and disappointing when life doesn't go "as planned". But if I've learned anything it's this.. well it may not be going as YOU planned. But it is going as God planned. You may not know the reasoning for it now, or you may never know. But God has an amazing plan for your life and mine.

    When I stop trying to plan my life and start trusting in the great planner. That's when I can just find some form of peace. For God doesn't give me anything He doesn't know I can't handle. And when we can't handle it, He sends His angels to watch over and guard us.

    Doesn't mean I don't get frustrated still. Doesn't mean I don't cry and wonder why has all this happened to me. No I still do both those things. But in those times of frustration.. I close my eyes and pray to God to give me the strength to get through the hard days.

    I don't just thank Him in the good days, praying is for the hard days too. Especially on those days.

    And hey.. this whole couple years hasn't been full of just hard times. It's been full of some amazing times. It's been full of love, support from all over.

    It's given me time to spend at home and really find myself. Not get caught up in a job title. But spend time and make time for friends and family.

    Even though I would never of chosen this last year and a bit or wish it on my worst enemy. I'd be lying if I said I haven't grown from it. So as another year is coming to a end in a few short months. I thank God for the good days and pray for His strength in the hard days.

    Good night and sleep tight,

    Thursday, 6 October 2016

    I will never lose hope.

    After 18 months of dealing with this injury.. its kind of become my "norm". Headaches, neck pain, left side weakness, physio appointments, massage appointments, taking pain medication has become my "normal routine". Although I still hope that these things too shall pass. It can be discouraging knowing I've been dealing with this for so long. Although I've come SO far. It still upsets me. 

    A person my age shouldn't have to stop folding laundry because it aggravates my left arm. A person my age shouldn't have to stop crocheting because I start getting a tension headache from using my left arm for too long. A person my age shouldn't be on so many different pain medications that for the longest time I had alarms that would go off every 2 hours to remind me to take another med. 

    Unfortunately these things still happen to me and I've learned to live with it. Unfortunately for me when all I want to do is live a normal life. This injury is holding me back from doing that. 

    How do you go on with your life as normal when something is holding you back? Something that even if you try and ignore it you can't because you know if you do you'll pay for it later with a headache, pain and maybe even weakness. 

    I could throw my hands up in the air and say I give up. This is the hand I've been dealt. Just live with it. 

    But I refuse. I will never stop trying to build my strength back. I'll never give up and think this is as good as it gets. Yes some days are harder than others. Yes I have days where I want to scream WHY ME!! But those are the days that make me fight harder. I'm not going to quit on myself now or ever. I've gotten out of worse days and come out stronger from
    It. Today is no different. Life is too short to live in the what if.. the why me.. 

    God has a plan for your life. He hasn't given up on me or given me anything I can't handle. So why should I give up on myself. I may not always understand His plan and that's ok. Because He has never steered me wrong or turned His back on me. I trust in Him and His plan for my life. 

    My journey. My story. His plan. .