After 18 months of dealing with this injury.. its kind of become my "norm". Headaches, neck pain, left side weakness, physio appointments, massage appointments, taking pain medication has become my "normal routine". Although I still hope that these things too shall pass. It can be discouraging knowing I've been dealing with this for so long. Although I've come SO far. It still upsets me.
A person my age shouldn't have to stop folding laundry because it aggravates my left arm. A person my age shouldn't have to stop crocheting because I start getting a tension headache from using my left arm for too long. A person my age shouldn't be on so many different pain medications that for the longest time I had alarms that would go off every 2 hours to remind me to take another med.
Unfortunately these things still happen to me and I've learned to live with it. Unfortunately for me when all I want to do is live a normal life. This injury is holding me back from doing that.
How do you go on with your life as normal when something is holding you back? Something that even if you try and ignore it you can't because you know if you do you'll pay for it later with a headache, pain and maybe even weakness.
I could throw my hands up in the air and say I give up. This is the hand I've been dealt. Just live with it.
But I refuse. I will never stop trying to build my strength back. I'll never give up and think this is as good as it gets. Yes some days are harder than others. Yes I have days where I want to scream WHY ME!! But those are the days that make me fight harder. I'm not going to quit on myself now or ever. I've gotten out of worse days and come out stronger from
It. Today is no different. Life is too short to live in the what if.. the why me..
God has a plan for your life. He hasn't given up on me or given me anything I can't handle. So why should I give up on myself. I may not always understand His plan and that's ok. Because He has never steered me wrong or turned His back on me. I trust in Him and His plan for my life.
My journey. My story. His plan. .