Saturday, 13 February 2016


Life is full of choices. Of different decisions. Some big things that can be life changing. Some are just every day. If it's just not lashing out at things that might stress you out. Or letting stress go. Those life choices. Can be easy.. Can be hard. I've learned a lot about making decisions and choices. It's not been easy. Stress can consume you if you let it. It can consume your sleep. It can consume your thoughts. It can consume your life. If you let it.

One major lesson I learned is.. Letting go. That's hard for me. I hold onto things. I overthink sometimes. And I worry.

The bible has a lot to say about worry and stress.

It can still be hard. As humans we want answers now. We want results now. We want to know how something will turn out. And those thoughts can really destroy you. Leave it with God. He is in control. He has a plan for EVERYTHING. That can be hard to understand. Especially when bad things are happening.

How can God allow bad things to happen?

It's all part of His great plan. I was told once to think of my life as part of a great tapestry. Each part of my life makes up more of it. Each "life lesson" adds to it. We only see a small portion of it. And it's hard to understand what it will look like. But once you step back and see the whole picture. You understand why something happened. Now that's not with everything. You also have to trust. God does everything for His glory. His plan. And trust me, if you follow Him. He's got an amazing story He's writing. My life circumstances happened for a reason. Sometimes I've been blessed to see why it happened and how it changed my life and the course I was on. But something I've had to learn to let go and trust God and His plan.

How do you stop your mind from racing? All those negative thoughts? Give them to God. Say God I can't handle this.. It's to much for me to handle. Please help me. BE HONEST! Prayer isn't just about giving thanks or asking for forgiveness. It's our way to communicate with God. He knows your every thought. So just ask. That's all it takes. He will send His peace to you. If you let go of it. And put your trust in Him. Trust me. He will be able to carry you when you're weak. He will hold you when you're sad. He'll bring you back when you're lost. He is your father. He cares so deeply about you. He won't lead you astray.

Life is difficult. Life is full of joy and blessing though. See the good. Let go of the negative. Enjoy this life you have been given. Ask God for help in times of need and thank Him for the blessings you have.

Jer. 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." 

We put our hope in the one who is with us no matter what. We put our faith in the one that died for us. We put our trust in the one that will never leave us. We cling to Him when there's nothing else to cling to. People ask me how can you be so joyful? How can you be so strong? With all that has happened to you.. Well.. It's just that.. It's not my strength. It's not my joy. It's Gods love. Gods peace. Gods joy. He is there for me no matter what. In times of difficulty He holds me close and I just pray. And pray. And pray. And He never ceases to amaze me. We are designed to want something bigger. We are designed to need something. It's that nagging feeling that there's more to life. That's God pulling you towards Him. Over this past year with my health scare. I had nothing to cling to but Him. He was beside me whispering words of comfort during those sleepless nights. He walked beside me when I couldn't take any steps due to the pain. My body was in such excruciating pain. That I didn't think I could go on.. Not like that. And God reached down and helped me through it. When you're broken. He fixes you. He NEVER left my side. When I was scared and frightened and unsure of the future. He gave me hope for the future. What is the point of life and living.. If you're not living for Him?? Life has to have purpose. Otherwise, what are we all doing here? Is it to party, is it to make lots of money, is it to buy a bigger house, a faster car, a better job, more travel, more time?.. You get one life. You have this one opportunity to live your life with some meaning. Live it for Him. He promises eternal life in Him. He promises life if you follow Him. Eternal life in heaven is what we're living for. We have this one life to live until we go to be with Him if you're saved in Jesus. That's my hope. That's my future. Is with Him. I cling to His plans. Plans of hope, plans of a future. In Him. 

It won't be easy to let go. But it will be worth it.

Peace He left with us. His peace that surpasses understanding.


Sunday, 24 January 2016

New year... New beginnings

Life is full of obstacles. If this year has taught me anything it's that. I've been dealt some bad hands in the past. Definitely haven't had an easy year dealing with this injury. But I truly believe this year will bring closure to that. I've put up a fight, daily. I've dealt with chronic pain. Debilitating pain. But I've had some amazing doctors, specialist, friends and family by my side through this. God was there by my side. He gave me strength. His strength to get through it. I didn't do it on my own. God is good!

This year has some amazing memories. Being on a injury leave and now staying at home until I heal. I've had the time to spend time with family and friends. I've been able to not allow my "job title" to define me. I am a strong, smart individual and I am more than the place I work. I've learned to be a better wife, a better home maker, a better friend. I've made time for people and not let my work take over my life. This year has taught me that.

I hope everyone had an amazing 2015 and I can't wait to see what 2016 has in store for me. Hopefully a lot less pain, a lot more laughter. A lot more joy, more peace. I pray that I can see the blessings in my daily life, despite the struggle. I pray that I continue to grow in Gods grace and love.


Wednesday, 16 December 2015

What do you want?? What would you like? What do you need?

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It's that time of year again. Where everyone is asking... What do you want? What would you like? What do you need?

It's a simple question. So why do we find it so hard to answer. Or is it just me.

Honestly this year I can say I really don't need, want anything in particular. This year we decided to do a homemade Christmas exchange with my family. It makes for more thoughtful  thought out gifts. We can spend so much money on this things. When it's homemade it has that special touch you can't get from store bought.

Since my injury Jon and I have simplyfied our life in so many ways. And to be perfectly honest, money can be a huge stress. The more you have doesn't necessarily mean the happier you will be. Since being a stay at home wife while I recover. We've obviously had to make adjustments. Don't get me wrong.. It was hard.. To make sacrifices.. To lose things you worked hard for. But I've never felt more free! A huge financial burden has been lifted. We have everything we need. Those extra things were nice to have and made some parts of life easier. But we've learned to live without them and it feels freeing. I have this freedom from bigger.. Better.. More. Life can get full of "stuff". It definitely happens this time of year. I would spend so. much. money. On things, on stuff for Jon. Sure he would have lots to open at Christmas. But did we have to spend $$$ so much. This year for Christmas there might not be as much gifts under the tree. But the ones that are bought are from the heart and really thought out. When you only buy a small gift. It means you really have thought about it and bought the one thing they really want or need.

So again I ask..  What do you want? What would you like? What do you need?

Really think about it. Buy only the things they need. Don't just buy so that there's LOTS of gifts. Buy from the heart.

I hope each and everyone of you have a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. Full of His love, His peace, His pure and simple joy. Live in the freedom of His amazing grace.


Sunday, 14 June 2015

����Simple and free until I'm dead����

Live your life to the fullest. You only have one life to live. 

"I want to live a simple life without stress or worry. I don't need a lot of stuff. I just want to be happy".... And I would add content. 

Sweet dreams everyone. 


Tuesday, 12 May 2015

Dear God...

Dear God,

I'm trying my VERY best.
But I NEED some rest.
I am tired and drained by the pain.

Will you please heal my body?
Mend my heart?
Will you restore my mind?

I need you more and more each day. Searching for answers.. I know you have a perfect plan and use everything for your glory. Please hear my prayer and heal me.

Your daughter Deanna

Saturday, 9 May 2015

Most beautiful.. Most kind.. Most loving.

Happy Mother's Day to an amazing women.

She raised 4 kids, not just raised. But homeschooled, loved, cried with, comforted, helped 4 children. I don't know how she did it. But she did. She also married her high school sweet heart and has been happily married for over 30 years. They have shown Jon and I was a true marriage is all about. She has also been here for me through two sicknesses... She comforts me daily. Is there to talk anytime of night. Hugs me, encourages me, loves me unconditionally. My mother is what the bible writes about.. She is a Godly example of a mother.. A wife.. A sister.. And one day a Grandmother. I can't wait to give her grandchildren. Her love for children is shown in the smile that lights up when she sees them. Anyone who meets my Mom automatically falls in love with her. Her laugh can be heard from near.. And far *snicker*. Her smile can brighten the worst of days. Her giving heart is there for you no matter what.

So here's to you Mom! I am blessed to have you. May Gods face continue to shine upon you and be gracious to you.

I've learned a lot from my Mom. How to live my life to the fullest. How to not take people for granted. Who to give with your whole heart. How to love with passion. How to care for others even when they don't care back. How to cook. How to clean. How to save money. How to pray. How to put  God first. How to be a Godly wife. How to love. How to be goofy. How to bug (just ask jon.. Hehe my mom and I are the best at this!!) how to have fun!!. The list could go on and on. But mostly... What I've learned...

Is that no matter what... No matter who hurts me.. No matter what happened...

She is there for me.

For all that you do. For all that you are. Thank you Mom!

Love you more than anyone could possibly imagine.

Your little Deanna

Its beginning to feel a lot like SUMMER...

Sun through the rain...

Seeing the good through a difficult time

Its been a busy couple weeks. I've been dealing with a sickness that has crippled me with pain. I am so thankful for the Doctors and nurses in Almonte General Hospital for all there help in finding me specialist and helping me with getting on the right pain meds. I'm thankful for the family God has blessed me with and how they have looked out for me. I'm thankful for our Church and the prayers and lovely messages I have received. I'm thankful for my husband, my soul mate, my best friend.. who once again has proven he took our vows as seriously as I did. When we said through sickness and health.. good times and bad.. we really meant it.

Sometimes its hard to see the light.. the good... the reason why things are happening.. especially through the pain... BUT...

I'm learning God is good.. God is in control.. God has a plan.. He does all things to HIS glory. He doesn't give you more than you can handle. I know that because.. He is always a prayer away. He can handle all things. When in doubt pray.. when lost read the bible.. when unsure speak to your pastor.. when in pain at night talk to your spouse.. God places so many people in your life to help you through the good times and the bad. You just have to be willing to listen. 

I'm listening...

We have had a busy couple of months here is a summary of the last couple of weeks in photos. Enjoy!! We have had a blast getting things done around the house. I've enjoyed shopping with my Mom, days out with the Nephews and niece, relaxing with my Mother-in-law, walks with my Father-in-law in the bush, dates with my Dad, and special memories made with my one true love. I hope you enjoy scrolling through these... May you be blessed.

This is the perfect picture to end with...

This last couple months has been difficult. I've had to make changes, I've had to go down roads I never thought I would have to. But life is a journey.. It really is.. sometimes a new adventure or new road will bring more blessings than you can imagine. Even though it can be difficult. Trust in God. He will bless you.

Blessings in Him,