Friday, 25 November 2016

Matthew 5:43-45

We as a society feel like we have come so far, that we are open to others. Whether it's their belief, their race, the way they live their life. We feel that everyone has a right to freedom of speech. As long as what they say isn't hate.

But have we changed? or have people just been forced to conform to what the world believes is right? We believe we are a tolerant world. That we don't judge people. But don't we?

I was raised to stand up for what I believe. To defend what I believe. But in a gracious, kind and loving way. I don't believe I was created to judge, hate or discriminate against others. But does that mean I don't have a voice? Does that mean I can't disagree?

It's a fine line.. It's hard to find the balance between standing up for yourself, but not coming across as a judgemental person.

People that feel the only way to defend their believes by spreading judgement or hate. Is wrong! We are told to love our enemies..

"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy. I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you. That you may be children of your Father in heaven." 
- Matthew 5:43-45

So, how do we put that into action. It doesn't mean I can't stand up for what I believe. I've seen non-christians and christians defend their believes in a way that just spreads judgement and hate.

As a believer I know I chose a life of persecution. Following Jesus Christ isn't an easy road. But the finish line is what makes every hardship worthwhile. I've had to defend my faith to family and friends. I don't believe there is anything wrong with standing up for what you believe in. But society tells a different story. They believe that if you speak your mind about Jesus you are cramming your beliefs down someone's throats. They beleive speaking Jesus Christ, in schools, in the work place, is wrong. We have removed the bible, God and Jesus Christ from everything. We can't even say Merry Christmas without offending someone. We have to do merry Xmas or happy holidays.

We as Christians are told we're not open to others, we are judgmental, we should just keep our faith to ourselves. But at the same time non Christians and non believers can push their way of living down our throats and society has told us that is acceptable.

We live in a world that believes it has "come so far". When in fact we as a society have just found another place to put our hate, our judgment on and one of them is Christians.

If you as a Doctor, teacher feel certain laws that are passed or certain ways of teaching go against what you believe as a Christian. That doesn't matter. Because they have decided to separate Church and state. Parents aren't even allowed a say in what is being taught to their children.

It's a hard time in today's society to be a believer. We just have to continue sharing our story, fighting for what we believe in, fighting for what is right. God didn't put you on this earth to remain silent or to be made silent. He wants you to share of Gods love, of His grace. He wants you to stand firm in your beliefs. Stand up for Christ!

“We speak, not in the words which man’s wisdom teacheth, but which the Holy Ghost teacheth” 1 Corinthians 2:13

This has been heavy on my heart as recently I was offended by some comments on a post. The person who wrote the comments has a way of just making fun of Christians, posting hate, and twisting facts to justify the comments that were made. I had to set aside my anger for what was being said and just post what I beleive. I was tired of seeing post that were directed at Christians in a mean, hurtful and hateful way.

“A soft answer turneth away wrath; but grievous words stir up anger” Proverbs 15:1

As mentioned before I was raised to love and respect others.. no matter their race, religion or beliefs. Just because someone doesn't share the same beliefs as you does not mean you have to spread hate. You can defend what you beleive in but in a loving and meaningful way. You shouldnt have to spread hate to defend what you beleive in.

Well that's my two cents anyway. Remember no matter what we are called to love one another. Love one another as Christ loved us and gave His life for us. And don't be ashamed to speak about your faith.

For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ” Romans 1:16


Tuesday, 15 November 2016

Gain an hour.. lose an hour of daylight!

Every year we do it, yet every time we do it never ceases to amaze me, how that extra hour of sunlight makes all the difference. Even though it's beautiful out! Seriously like spring out there and it's already middle of November. At this rate we'll have enough wood for 3 winters. But back to losing that hour of sunlight. It really causes everyone to go into a depression. I don't think I'm the only one. Everyone I'm talking to tells me how they want to go tanning. Just to get some vitamin d. It's not bad if you have some afternoons off. But for people that work 8-5 etc you feel like you got to work in the dark and get home in the dark. It can be really depressing. 

What doesn't help is all this talk about the American election and Donald Trump becoming president. I haven't posted anything about the election yet. But it's been nonstop post about it. It can be overwhelming. Even more so than the thought of Trump being president. Time will tell to see how he is. Let's just pray he just runs his mouth and he doesn't plan going through with any of it. We will see. 

With all these things happening. It can really cause you to hit a wall. Well know you're not on your own. Here's a list I found...

  • Keep active. Research has shown that a daily one-hour walk in the middle of the day could be as helpful as light treatment for coping with the winter blues. 
    1. Get outside. 
    2. Keep warm. 
    3. Eat healthily. 
    4. See the light. 
    5. Take up a new hobby. 
    6. See your friends and family. 
    7. Talk it through.

    Hope it helps us all as we prepare ourselves for winter and fewer and fewer hours of daylight. The only thing I'd add is praying. God can shed light on the darkest of days. 


    Tuesday, 1 November 2016

    A new season.. A new beginning..

    As we enter a new season. I'm reminded that with each season brings change. Sometimes that change can be good. Sometimes that change can be hard. Life can throw you in directions you never imagined. Maybe you're starting a new adventure and that's scary, but exciting. Maybe you're waiting for something, and that's hard. Maybe you're looking for change. Maybe life is just in general hard right now. Well if I've learned anything.. it's this. Life can be hard and that's ok! It may seem like a easy thing to learn. But for me it wasn't. I got married at 20. You'd think I'd have my whole life ahead of me. And we did. But shortly into marriage I would go to a cottage and get a parasite and spend a long time in the hospital and recovery. I'd finally get back on my feet and start a new job at age 22 and again at age 25 I'd suffer a neck injury and be on the road to recovery again. Except this time it would be a year later.. almost 2 years and Im still dealing with it.

    It can be super frustrating and disappointing when life doesn't go "as planned". But if I've learned anything it's this.. well it may not be going as YOU planned. But it is going as God planned. You may not know the reasoning for it now, or you may never know. But God has an amazing plan for your life and mine.

    When I stop trying to plan my life and start trusting in the great planner. That's when I can just find some form of peace. For God doesn't give me anything He doesn't know I can't handle. And when we can't handle it, He sends His angels to watch over and guard us.

    Doesn't mean I don't get frustrated still. Doesn't mean I don't cry and wonder why has all this happened to me. No I still do both those things. But in those times of frustration.. I close my eyes and pray to God to give me the strength to get through the hard days.

    I don't just thank Him in the good days, praying is for the hard days too. Especially on those days.

    And hey.. this whole couple years hasn't been full of just hard times. It's been full of some amazing times. It's been full of love, support from all over.

    It's given me time to spend at home and really find myself. Not get caught up in a job title. But spend time and make time for friends and family.

    Even though I would never of chosen this last year and a bit or wish it on my worst enemy. I'd be lying if I said I haven't grown from it. So as another year is coming to a end in a few short months. I thank God for the good days and pray for His strength in the hard days.

    Good night and sleep tight,

    Thursday, 6 October 2016

    I will never lose hope.

    After 18 months of dealing with this injury.. its kind of become my "norm". Headaches, neck pain, left side weakness, physio appointments, massage appointments, taking pain medication has become my "normal routine". Although I still hope that these things too shall pass. It can be discouraging knowing I've been dealing with this for so long. Although I've come SO far. It still upsets me. 

    A person my age shouldn't have to stop folding laundry because it aggravates my left arm. A person my age shouldn't have to stop crocheting because I start getting a tension headache from using my left arm for too long. A person my age shouldn't be on so many different pain medications that for the longest time I had alarms that would go off every 2 hours to remind me to take another med. 

    Unfortunately these things still happen to me and I've learned to live with it. Unfortunately for me when all I want to do is live a normal life. This injury is holding me back from doing that. 

    How do you go on with your life as normal when something is holding you back? Something that even if you try and ignore it you can't because you know if you do you'll pay for it later with a headache, pain and maybe even weakness. 

    I could throw my hands up in the air and say I give up. This is the hand I've been dealt. Just live with it. 

    But I refuse. I will never stop trying to build my strength back. I'll never give up and think this is as good as it gets. Yes some days are harder than others. Yes I have days where I want to scream WHY ME!! But those are the days that make me fight harder. I'm not going to quit on myself now or ever. I've gotten out of worse days and come out stronger from
    It. Today is no different. Life is too short to live in the what if.. the why me.. 

    God has a plan for your life. He hasn't given up on me or given me anything I can't handle. So why should I give up on myself. I may not always understand His plan and that's ok. Because He has never steered me wrong or turned His back on me. I trust in Him and His plan for my life. 

    My journey. My story. His plan. .


    Tuesday, 23 August 2016

    The girl that I am. The girl that God created me to be. The girl that is beautiful. The girl that is enough.

    I know what it’s like to look at a girl and compare yourself to her and the way her body looks. As if you can be compared to any other person on this planet. As if you are not uniquely made. As if your thighs being larger than that girl’s make your chances of being loved smaller. As if your hips being wider than that girl’s make your chances of looking beautiful when you going out slimmer. As if your stomach not being lean makes your chances of being noticed as much as that girl’s pretty fat.
    Some days I still wish I could somehow be that girl. I could eat less with that girl in mind. I could work out twice a day and look at that girl as my goal. And, some days I get so caught up in that girl that I lose sight of this girl. 
    The girl that I am. The girl that God created me to be. The girl that is beautiful. The girl that is enough.
    I lose sight of the girl I am. I lose sight of my own likeness to God. I lose sight of my own beauty. I lose sight of my own potential. I love sight of my own reality. Because I become caught up in the lie that by looking like someone else I become better. More loved. More accepted. More attractive.
    Some days the pressures I entertain within my own mind and heart are so heavy that when I look in the mirror I don’t see any of the things I have the potential to be. I don’t see that girl, but, more heartbreakingly, I don’t see this girl. I see a project. I see something to be altered. Tightened. Reduced. Expanded. I see nothing but things to be improved upon. 
    When in truth this girl is perfect. Because this girl is healthy. This girl is loved. This girl is smart. This girl is successful. This girl is driven. And this girl has the will power and the faith to keep that girl from distracting her from how beautiful she is.
    People exercise and diet to transform themselves. But sometimes, we need a transformation much deeper than one that can be measured by a scale. Sometimes, we need a transformation that can only be achieved through prayer and self-love. 
    And sometimes, being able to look into a mirror and see yourself as God sees you is all the measurement you need.

    Sunday, 7 August 2016

    His glory. His purpose. His timing.

    Sometimes it's so easy to look at the place you want to be and forget how far you've come. That can be true when it comes to
    wanting to be married, have kids, when it comes to your health. Whatever your goal may be. 

    My goal right now is my health and getting my body/strength back, being pain free, being headache free. That's where I am at this point. Is it frustrating! Hell yeah. I thought I'd be married and have kids at this point. But God had another plan for me. Do I know why what happened to me happened. No I don't, but I have faith in God. He doesn't guarantee us a perfect life. But He does give you the strength you need to get through whatever trial you are going through.

    Each one of us has our own trial. I don't know what you are going through. Just like you may not know what I am going through. That's why we shouldn't judge people. They might be just going through a really tough time. Especially as christians, we are called to uplift each other. Do you know someone who is struggling and you've been thinking about helping them. With a phone call? A meal? Just a message? I know I could be more giving. I could pray for people more often than I do. 

    I know everytime I get together with someone, I can feel stressed out before it. But once they are here I always feel uplifted. Anything I was worried about.. if the house was clean enough, if the dogs will be ok.. whatever it might be. It just goes away, and I'm left with just feelings of a really nice visit. 

    Although life can be stressful and frustrating. Whatever you might be going through. I pray you have a great support team surrounding you. I lean on my family and friends more than I should. The relationship I have built with some ladies, I just lean on them. I don't know what I would do without them. 

    I hope you are blessed by my blogpost. I know I am blessed by writing them. It puts my thoughts down and I always feel better.


    Monday, 30 May 2016

    My journey • My story • Gods plan

    1 year 2 months ago since I stopped working and was put on an injury leave. Over the last year I've had countless test, exams, specialist. I've been in more pain than I thought the human body was possible of handling. But even through all that.. I've never given up HOPE. At any point I could of given up, pick up that cane and continued with my left side getting weaker. Instead through sweat, tears and pain. I worked through it and have come so far. Thanks to my doctor, neurologists, nurse and staff at Almonte, physiotherapist, massage therapist, pharmacist. Just to name a few. I've come SO far. I still have a long way to go. I get so frustrated when I have a set back and my pain comes back and my left arm starts tingling. But I still push through. Because I believe a year from today I won't believe how far I've come. One day at a time.

    Injury recovery can be so frustrating!! Because I've put so much  MONEY, TIME and DEDICATION into getting better. 2 times a week of exercises, + massages and + doctors appointments. It takes up so much time. But it's worth the time spent. I've seen such amazing improvements. No more walking or relying on my cane. No more daily migraines/tension headaches. No more all over body debilitating pain. Even with all these improvements. I still deal with migraines, Im still on 3 pain killers. 1 I take daily and two others for as needed. I keep telling myself how far I've come and that this healing process although it's been hard. Emotionally and physically. It's worth all the pain. It just can be frustrating when I'm feeling better so I get more active and than it sets me back and my left side pain comes back and all the progress I made gets put on hold as I have to take my other pain medication again and have to take it easy and rest and stretch the muscles at my workout instead of strength building.

    So how do I stay POSITIVE and see the good. When it can be frustrating and such a slow process..? I'm really struggling with this..

    But than I remember my story, my journey, ... Gods plan.

    That's a big one. Because my human self wants it fixed right now. I want to move on and not look back. I want to not have the set backs. I want to be pain free. I want to be off my medications.

     I want I want I want ... See?? There's a lot of "I" in there. But what about Gods plan. Is He not writing a perfect story for me? Does He not have a plan for me? SO why can't I be patient and trust in Him. Because my selfish human self takes over and I focus on myself instead of focusing on Him.

    I'm trying my best to see the good and the IMPROVEMENT and focus on that. But I still have days that are hard.